I met my fairy godmother when I was 34, the day before everything turned around for me. I had no idea, entering that week, that I was about to have the best six days of my life. I couldn’t have foreseen winning that trip to London, or randomly having a relaxing three hour conversation with Tom Hiddleston at my favorite local coffee shop while he was shooting a film nearby. I certainly had no idea I was about to find a literary agent who found a publisher for my first book in three days and got me a book deal on top of it for my next one.
My fairy godmother never showed up to take credit, but I have to assume she had a lot to do with lining up those events. At the very least, she made sure I was appropriately outfitted for all that was about to transpire.
I was feeling pretty sorry for myself before she showed up. I was discouraged by failure after failure. At a friend’s party, when I couldn’t stand the shame of answering the sixteenth new person who asked me what I did, I went outside to sit in the darkness on the front porch. That’s when she appeared.
At first, she was just a faint blur that materialized on the lawn before me. It was roughly the shape of a person, but no detail could be determined. She was making sound, but it was like a voice trying to communicate over a weak radio signal.
The jumbled, human-sized thing making incoherent noises seemed to be asking me a question I couldn’t make out. I only guessed that because the staticky mumbling seemed to lift in tone at the end, and there were always pauses afterward, as if I might respond.
“Garblegarblegarblegarb? Garble? Garblegarble?”
Finally, she seemed to realize I couldn’t understand her. She disappeared completely for a moment. Then, there was a wooden knock, exactly like the sound a baseball bat makes when it makes perfect contact with a ball centered right on the sweet spot. With the knock, she was clearly visible and audible. She was short, probably no taller than 4’11”, and the sides of her head were shaven beneath a shock of bright red hair. She was all tattoos and piercings. Her skin was brown, one would be tempted to say she was African-American, but I doubt fairies hold the same sorts of cultural, national, ethnic boundaries we do. Her accent was subtle, but whatever her first language was it was most certainly not any language I’ve ever heard before.
“Sorry about that. I’m not used to phasing into a dimension that’s perceivable for you. I’m new to this particular role.”
I wanted to respond, but instead I just stared at her. I tried thinking back to recount how many drinks I’d had, or who had handled any of them and might have dropped a foreign substance into it. Nope, only one drink, and it was a beer I’d opened myself. Either I was losing my mind, or this was really happening.
“My name is Laila, I’m your fairy godmother.”
Count my drinks again. Definitely just the one. Did I let someone hold it at some point? Might someone have dropped something into it while I was holding it without me seeing?
“Are you stuck?”
“Sorry… I… I’m having trouble believing this is happening.”
“Believe or don’t believe. It is happening either way.”
She was a bit more abrupt than I would have expected from a fairy godmother. I liked it. No chitchat. No wasted words.
“Aren’t I a little old for a fairy godmother?”
“Old? No. Fairy godmothers guide in birth or transition. Never too old for new life or growth.”
“If you see some kind of change for me on the horizon you can see much better than I can.”
“Yes, I can see much better than you can.”
I actually laughed at that. I’m not sure if it is something to do with fairies, but I was acclimating to the situation with uncanny speed.
“So, do you have a message for me or something? How does this work?”
“Yes, a message and three gifts. The message: You have worked, you have failed, you have always gotten back up, albeit often limping. This has been breaking the cocoon. Now you are strong, and the next phase begins. Keep your eyes open, your ears attuned.”
I admit, my eyes teared up a bit. Most of me still didn’t believe any of it, but it was so much what I wanted to hear that it moved me whether it was real or not.
“Now, gifts. I’ll be right back.”
The sound of her leaving was different than the baseball bat sound, it was more like the sound of a breaking glass. Not a shattering glass, like a kicked window or a mug knocked off the counter. Just a breaking glass, the sound a wine glass makes when it hits something at just the right fracture point and cracks with that loud ting that fills the room. Arresting, but not jarring.
The sound of her return was like the sound of an open palm playfully slapping fleshy skin. It was far more erotic than the other two sounds, and I felt my face grow warm in spite of myself. Her smirk seemed to indicate intentionality, along with a few other decidedly ungodmotherly things.
As if reading my mind, her smirk deepened. “Godmother is just a phrase.” She actually winked.
“Here.”
She handed me my three gifts. They were actually wrapped, like it was my birthday and her a close friend. I looked into her face before opening any.
“You are unwrapping. It seemed fitting that the gifts would need unwrapping as well.”
I went from largest to smallest.
First was a remarkably fine grey suit, a purple gingham shirt, and a black skinny tie. I would learn when I got home and tried it on that the suit was bespoke, as if a skilled tailor had carefully fitted it to my measurements in the most flattering cuts. I was about to close the first box when she spoke. “More.” I paused, and then looked beneath the suit. There was also a pair of dinosaur socks, bright orange stegosauruses paraded in front of a green background. Paired with the rest of the outfit, they would offer a tone of playfulness and subversion. After all, she is a fairy and I am a writer.
Second, brown leather shoes the likes of which I couldn’t have afforded if I saved disposable income for a year. Hell, I couldn’t have afforded them if I went without some necessities for a year. Gaziano & Girling, bespoke yet again.
Third, the smallest box. It felt empty. It was empty. I looked at her, confused but certainly not ready to complain. She grinned, and kissed me gently on the lips. It filled me with warmth, but not an erotic warmth like a moment earlier. It was a sweetness that filled me. A confidence. I felt I could do anything, even impossible things. And over the next few days, through both chance and agency, wearing my best suit and with the warmth of a kiss still lingering on my lips, I did do things that I would have thought impossible just days before.