It happened during my last fight with Jenny. It was the newest version of a fight we’d had over and over again before that. We were in my living room, able to get louder and more ferocious than normal because my roommates weren’t home. I wanted the fight to be over, to move on to the rest of our day. I was tired of the fight and didn’t have the energy to keep going.
She was standing, so I got up from the couch and moved to her. She let me put my arms around her, buried her head against my chest. She started crying, and I knew that meant she was getting mascara all over the front of my shirt. Mostly I didn’t care about the mascara.
When she first started speaking again, I didn’t catch what she said. She mumbled it into my chest. I’m not sure she wanted me to hear it that first time, like maybe she it was a test run and she was warming up to the real thing. When I asked her to repeat it, took a deep breath and she did, moving her face just enough so that her mouth was free from my shirt.
“I can’t be stuck with you anymore.”
“What?”
“You’re stuck, Ryan. You’ve stopped growing or changing or wanting anything more than where you are right now. I don’t know if it’s because you’re lazy, or because you’re afraid, or because of some other reason I can’t even guess. I just know you aren’t moving at all.
I had no idea what to say. Was she breaking up with me? Or was this just a particularly emphatic plea to get me to make a change? It wasn’t just what she’d said, but how she said it that made it clear to me that she’d been thinking about this for a long time. This wasn’t a knee-jerk attempt to make contact with a blow during the argument. This was real. How real, I didn’t know.
Then she pulled away. She kissed me, and in that moment I hoped that maybe she would feel bad and soften the edge on her words. We could figure this out together. But when she pulled away she looked me in the eyes, hers still full of tears.
“I love you,” she said. “But I can’t be stuck with you anymore.”
Then she walked out my front door.
I tried to follow, but my feet were rooted in place. I couldn’t move them at all. I don’t mean figuratively, I literally could not move my feet, and haven’t been able to since.
Immediately, I started panicking. It was like a terrible form of claustrophobia. I screamed and yelled, I pulled to try and unstick my feet from whatever strange suction held them in place. Finally I was able to calm myself down enough to stop hyperventilating.
I experimented, and found I had full range of motion of my other extremities. I can bend at the knees, which is tricky without being able to move my feet. Losing one’s balance is a painful proposition when both feet are locked in place.
That first day I stood alone the entire afternoon. Occasionally I yelled for hope, but no one ever heard me, or at least no one ever responded.
When my roommates finally came home, nothing they could come up with helped me. They pushed and pulled, carefully poured boiled water under the rubber of my sneakers, no dice.
I didn’t let them call anyone for help that first night. It was embarrassing, and who would believe it? Plus, I wasn’t feeling tired like I should from standing for so long.
The next day we called the fire department, who came and failed to get me free. Their saw could’t get through our floor, which was suddenly somehow extremely hard.
That’s when the news crews started showing up. Crowds of people outside to see the guy who was stuck to his living room floor, whom no expert could free.
This went on for a while, but eventually the world lost interest. Went on to whatever other impossible and mildly entertaining thing there was to grab their attention.